Desire as Polarized Intention
We believe that our sensory experience rules our state of being. We associate people, places, objects, and external experiential configurations to states such as love, bliss, joy, harmony, fulfillment, gratitude, ease and wholeness.
As long as this is our prevailing perceptual lens, we must strongly identify as a physical entity, within space and time, whom is “in play”, available to receive these states through particular configurations in the material sensory reality.
But, is our joy, love, wholeness and gratitude really dependent on external circumstances, or do these states arise within us and are then experiences in the physical?
In their natural formless movement, these states rise and fall effortlessly. However, when experienced through the conditioned mind, they arise in the form of desire. Let us look at love.
Love blooms within us. In its natural evolution we illuminate love, nurture this intention, and watch it grow within us and reflected into our unified experience. We are fully aware that we are in fact the very movement which brings all aspects of love into being.
Love blooms into the flower of its fullest potential and we allow it to unfold and spill out through our perception of our manifest reality. Whatever the configuration of our external environment, we can experience this configuration in a state of love, and feel a deep connection to our experience as a whole and also divided in its infinite parts.
This is how love blooms and unfolds in its natural and unmanipulated state within and without time.
Typically, as humans, we filter our intentions through the conditioned mind; a mind which limits its experience through perceived causal reactions, as well as judgements and associations within physical configurations. Because our perception limits experience based on our sensory environment and our perception of that environment, the expression of love is extremely limited.
Let us look at the state of love experienced through the filter of the conditioned mind.
We illuminate love through intention. Because our awareness is focused primarily in the physical, there is little intentional awareness throughout this process. As the state of love blooms within us, we become alerted to its presence. Through the conditioned mind we endeavor to project/ superimpose this state into our external environment so we are able to experience it. So the conditioned mind has created duality in which there is an experiencer and an experience. The self identifies as the experiencer and a desire then forms to reach the experience (love). Desire is the recognition of intention from a dualistic perspective, where love and the self are separate. Due to the perception of separateness, there is a movement initiated towards “love”. The desire to reach love predisposes that the self is in the opposing state of “unlove”. So, in desiring to embody/ attain love is embedded the state of being unloved.
The conditioned mind scans the memory for a configuration in which it previously though itself embodying love. The conditioned mind will then use this memory (or conglomeration of memories) as a blueprint to fulfill the desire. And so begins the journey of addition and negation in the physical; working to create the conditions which are required in order to feel and unfold that state of love in the physical as the self. The unloved self enters the hero’s journey to climb out of the pits of unloved into the warm embrace of love. Along the way, the hero will feel a sense of that love whenever he moves closer to the physical configuration which he determined as the template to superimpose love into his reality; while feeling unloved every time he is moved farther away from that same template. The more invested the hero becomes in the journey, the less she is able to recognize that the goal of her quest blooms within her.
This is the experience of love through the manipulation of the conditioned mind.
Recognizing the core state within each arising desire and following that state back to intention brings awareness to the state within, independent of “external” circumstances. Once intentional awareness is the predominant perceptions, less attention and importance is placed on the physical as a limiting factor of the expression of the intended experiential state. Conditioning of the mind is dissolved by recognizing this blooming state in the present, rather than associating it with experiences of the past. We begin to feel ourselves as that state itself, and not as separate from it. Acceptance of our polarized external reality arises and merges with the internal state. Polarization / dualistic perception is dissolved and the experience within and without is fully experienced as one movement as the conscious self collapsing into the stillness of unified existence.
Through the experience of unification, we exist in the new and ever-flowing moment.
Though the experience of polarity, we exist in the cycles of the past and future which have no beginning or end.
